I have reached

the penultimate heights of being batshit crazy.
I have written a letter to my own self.

Dear Adrita

Stop feeling bad about the fb message group. So you had a crush on a guy that was, as a crush so massive that you had difficulty in letting go. But you have let go NOW and that is what is important. You need not feel embarrassed every time you check those videos. That guy is gone, you are in a different place. Its already dark here, the place where the guy is, its still bikel byala with the Sun shining strong. He is gone. GONE. So stop torturing your soul. Be happy about the childish amateur videos that you made. Whatever You did, you were honest. You said no lies. You did not mislead anyone into anything; God. You did not misbehave with anyone. You called her names but that was about HER. As far as the guy is concerned, this Adrita, as you clearly remember, this is not something that you have made up inside your mind. You were asked by him, “What do you want” and you replied “To have sex with you”.

Right? RIGHT??? RIGHT??????

Why did you want that Adrita? That and nothing else??? Because the guy had wanted that, having sex, some two months back.

Adrita, you do not get drunk, do you? If the guy had wanted that two months back merely because he was drunk and horny, that is his problem. Right? You know you were invariably crushing over him right? You did not go around telling anybody about it, because you do not do that.

Adrita, like you will remember, this very time last year, you were “pining” for another guy that you had “fallen in love with”.

How many guys have you crushed over Adrita. Just how many? This was the result of having studied in co-ed schools and colleges right?

Adrita, you have almost always pined for some guy or the other. What makes this guy a big deal, is that none of your former crushes have gotten horny and drunk or CONFIDENT enough to touch your aabrooo.

Please always remind yourself this, whenever you feel bad or embarrassed.