Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Chasing

a happy thought. How wonderful is it to have things to look forward to. A hot glass of coffee in the morning. Or the notion of an early pack up. Or the idea of the perfect boyfriend. Quoting Bridget Jones, "it is marvelous having a boyfriend."

I don't have one. Neither do I see myself all cushioned up with one, snuggling under a cozy blanket (quilt, preferably) watching "Roman Holiday" on a lazy winter Sunday afternoon or whatever.But the idea in itself is so bleeding rosy and pink and fantastic that it becomes a happy thought on autopilot.

Hence, I shall keep chasing after happy thoughts. Its called unnecessary optimism.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Carrying forward.

The hippieness of our times, I had kababs and crabmeat and mirinda while I watched this pink and outstanding animation film about castles in the sky and suchlike. I love this space. I wouldn't care if nobody read this, I love purple and I've vowed to stick to all things purple a long long time ago. Plus I am happy. and high. And purple.

The second sordid post.

It is only natural that after designing a new blog, shifting over stuff from the old one, bearing the pain of growing up, moving over to a different comfort zone, one should come up with a shiny little something to start the blog. So this is it.

Though there is nothing much that I could say, should say, I like having a blog. As much of a pain it might be to keep staring at the screen and not have anything to write, it is rather bloody nice to go back and sift through your past on a colorful background page. And then you can install cockroach widgets and human clocks and what not and treat your blog like a pink little all lacy baby girl, which i have been dutifully doing for quite some time. The idea is, I am too busy to blog. When I am not smoking up, I am planning all about a beautiful evening when I am going to smoke up and dance naked and have chocolates and the likes. I do have a job. Which pays me money, so that I can spend all of it at one go and go without more than a hundred rupees for one whole week.

I went to Pune the other week. With no money and practically no hindsight, I decided to go and chill in Pune. I cried bucketfuls of tears to make somebody take me with him ( because I had no money of my own). Then, for two and a half days I played a housewife. I was dependent for money, for shampoo, cigarettes and other assorted things which are a direct result of carrying cash on you ( which I wasn't). Then in a fit of rage, I did some angry things like throwing expensive electronic goods (like my own camera) at people and in return had them emptying Coke bottles on me. Then I slept and had magical dreams about free access to the internet, only to wake up and have free access, to the internet. Then I found out I have over fifty three odd people on my Facebook friendlist who I know/remember nothing about. I keep chatting with them pretending to know exactly who they are but in reality, I am just passing the time. Then I play these little self back patting games with myself in terms of congratulation for having completed twenty six minutes of a conversation with a stranger who is also a Facebook friendlisted friend.

I think thats enough for now. I need to go and have something sweet or apply nail polish on my toenails or something.

Sort of something.

Instead of being all gawky eyed and drunk with anticipation, its better to vent it all out.